OH MY GOD MY FRIEND CALLED THEM “5-ES-OH-ES” TODAY AND I politely told her that the boys and the fans say “5-sauce” because she only just discovered them its not her fault that she decided to pronounce it like any normal english speaking person would and didn’t know every fucking detail about a band she first heard yesterday
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Last night I had a dream that Michael and I broke up, because he never actually loved me. When I woke up I was upset. Michael noticed. He asked me what was wrong. I replied, “I had too much to dream last night.”
My worlds being put into color again, one by one the colors come back. I can’t believe it took me so long to realize that, Michael is the reason. I guess it turns out that I am human after all.
When I got there, all I could think of was how much I wanted, no, needed him in my life. So when I saw him, I ran up to him, jumped into his arms and said, “I need you” and he replied with, “I need you too”
Today Michael sent me a picture of him in the mail. I laughed, tears streaming down my face, because underneath it was a ticket to fly out where he was with a caption saying, “one month goes by, two more do, lying here, thinking of you.”
Today Michael called. He asked me how everything was. I told him that everything is fine. But I thought in my head, “but I wish I was dead”
Michael did go to college before me. He left last week. I began looking up quotes that can relate to us, but the only one that does is one from Kurt Cobain, “nobody dies a virgin. Life fucks us all.”
Michael might be going to college a year before me. I’m so happy for him, but I can’t help but feel sad about the fact that I won’t see him again for a while. But he sang to me that stupid song that I can’t remember the name of, “we’re smiling but we’re close to tears” I laughed with him, tears streaming down our faces. Is this what we call love?
I looked out at the city again today. Michael wasn’t there. It seemed even more beautiful now that I could see some color. God I miss seeing in color.
The bullying came back today. I was free for two months. So Michael took me back to the garden we went to before. He seemed kind of mad. So I asked him, “are you angry?” And he replied, “so angry.”
I’m still a little upset about everything, although I can see pink now. Michael came over my house today, and I was crying. He already knew what it was about, so he pulled me in for a hug and said, “no, no, please don’t cry, you won’t always feel so broken.”
Today Michael and I went around the city together. He was taking pictures, so I asked him why. He said, “because I went to remember this day.” And I asked him why. He just smile and said, “will you go out with me?” I smiled, and said yes. Today was great.
Michael asked me out on a date last night. I said yes. I guess what I wanted to tell you was, thanks for the memories.
Sometimes I feel like I’m lost at sea, but Michael seems to pull me out of that trance, and make me happy again.